five years.

it was a place full of strangers - i barely knew anyone. i looked around, dazed. i didnt know where i was supposed to go. a glance, and i saw a familiar face. i called out. do you know where 1S1 is?

with a grin, i got a reply. it was the furthest block. block c, he said. you cant miss it. it's the last class on the top floor.

nervousness engulfed me. it was such a new experience. everyone looked so different. light blue pinafores, dark green long pants.. intimidating people all around..

to think of it now, it all just seems like yesterday.

form one.. hard time trying to adjust at the beginning.. what with char in a different class from me and stuff.. then it was lepaking along the corridor every morning checking ppl out (namely guys and the canteen's roof! ahakz.. i remember there used to be a LOT of interesting things thrown up there.. heh) there was also the crazy geo teacher who was so hiao and smelled like a perfume advertiser.. lolz. yeah those were the days lah. joined band around mid year and almost fainted in my first march-past. gah.. so menyiasoikan ar.. tambah lagi the huge crush i had on one of the band leaders then. ahaha~! thinking back.. it all sounds so.. "eiyerr.. was i really like that??" sighz.

then form two.. enjoyed playing my baby in band.. going for trips to kuching.. seeing stjoe kch guys and going gaga over them together with chris and yih wen.. ahakz~! yeah.. that's what girls from co-ed schools do when finally given a chance to enter an all-guys' school. lol. hrm.. most of what i remember in form two basically involved band.. heh. i slept, ate, and lived for band.

form three.. pmr year. played more tennis.. everyday eating either jigs or the canteen's popiah with char and kar during recess.. hung out in 3T2 everyday.. didnt realize my other motive then, but yeah.. only till recently did i know why. ahakz.. crazy reason. went for mssm in terengganu. beat the hell out of the melaka players in doubles together with tiara. definitely one of my fave matches. down 4-6 in the first set, BARELY won the 2nd set 7-6 (7-1) and trashed them in the final set 6-1. ahaha.. ate original keropok lekor from terengganu itself.. kia kia along rantau abang beach in the MIDDLE OF THE DAY on BURNING SAND.. how interesting is that? ahaha.. finally for the first time getting a nervous breakdown during an exam. on the FIRST day of pmr somemore.. bm paper 2.. haihz.. lost an A just like THAT.

form four.. 'honeymoon' year. lolz.. year of godknowshowmany ups and downs. hell in addmath. hell in physics. hell in chem. hell in bio. ahaha.. and that's just the academic side of things.. also prefectorial stuffs.. hanging out behind the dewan during setting.. talking while waiting for the satin to be ironed.. then there was the band competition in kuching.. the whole scary EPISODE that lasted night AND day.. =( what else in form four? made a mistake.. a lot of mistakes. but then do mistakes feel good? i dont know. now i just try to consider it a very big mistake.. a mistake to be forgotten so as to lessen any hurt it may cause. haih. forget it. ohh.. not forgetting the crazy time in kedah for mssm.. sing tak sing hotel.. or was it an inn? ahaha.. the good and the bad of form four.. sighz.

form five.. this year. spm year. like hell.. not many memories.. no longer in band. no longer playing serious tennis after perlis mssm in march.. a lot of stress. pain. confusion. cant wait to get it over with. leave this place and start a new life. forget all that hurt and start anew..

how did so many things happen in such a short time? i want to turn back time. i'm not ready.. i dont want to grow up. but i dont want to remain here. there's too much to endure.. i wish time would just stop. for now at least.. so i can just finish studying my sejarah AND sleep AND still have enough time for other things when i resume time to continue again at 1:30pm on the 17th october 2004. hah.

i wish la..

@ 1:30 PM