feel the rush of the ocean?

wanna feel the warm breeze
sleep under a palm tree
feel the rush of the ocean

get on board a fast train
travel on a jet plane
far away
and break away..

- break away, kelly clarkson

i wonder if i'll even get to see palm trees or the ocean when go over to kl? time passes so fast that it's almost unbelievable i'm leaving so soon. in less than two weeks i wont be sitting here at home anymore; lazing around enjoying home-cooked food, helping my mom around the house for CNY, able to spend all day in front of the computer with broadband connection, watching canto dramas on astro wah lai toi.. *sigh*

i've been feeling torn between anticipation and something else i cant define. dread? homesickness? i dont know. how can i be homesick if i'm still at home? ahah now that's a weird thought.

i've only really started packing yesterday even tho my dad's been bugging me to pack for ageS. plates, cutlery, hangers, containers, bedsheets, etc. all in two boxes. i need to recheck again in case i've forgotten to pack something. i have a feeling i might need to cram a lot more last minute stuff. didnt realize i needed to bring so many things. i actually wanted to bring less and maybe buy the rest in kl, but my mom was worried we might not have time to go shopping the first few days so it's safer to bring the necessary items first. =)

what with all the packing and everything, i REALLY feel like i'm leaving soon. gaWd i wonder how i'll end up? ahah. it's a pretty interesting thought, if you come to think of it. fully pampered, everything-cared-for me will have to depend on myself for everything from now on! okay, maybe not from now on yet. when i leave for kl on the 14th of feb, that is, with me stressing that it's valentine's day! agH. not that i'm complaining much. no hunnie to spend it with anyway so.. ohwellz. at least it doesnt add to my current list of worries.

o_O

ahahaaa..

@ 11:16 AM