songs

you know those songs they used to play not too long ago? those soppy teenybopper-type love songs or boyband songs like 'this i promise you', 'i'll never break your heart', 'from the bottom of my broken heart', and so on?

well.

definitely not good for listening if you're in a not too good mood about things. especially about what they're singing. it just serves to make you feel much worse. not recommended.

and yet at times when things seem down, i find i'm kinda hooked on to them. yeah, i know most of you probably dont even think of listening to those songs anymore, but hey.. they're all slow, sentimental, and sweet. top on my priority music list.

it's all good, but the bad thing is, the more i like to listen, the worse i start to feel. just like adding salt to an open wound. so then i'd try to listen to something louder. something faster.

i turn on hiphop and urban. ciara, jay-z, beyonce, marques houston? hrm. dont really work either. too 'move-y' for the mood. try moving to black eyed peas the next time you feel jiwang. ahaha maybe i should just try it.

so it's next >> next >> and next >> song on the playlist. (i like to put my music on shuffle) i end up with rock and alternative. simple plan. welcome to my life. ouch. too close to reality. next >> busted. sleeping with the lights on. double ouch. next >> dashboard confessional. sounds fine, but not in the mood for too emo. next >> avril lavigne with my happy ending. i realize they're not really, uhm, helping either.

i try different songs.

next >> linkin park. numb. shyt. too loud. next >> right here waiting by richard marx. oh bloody. 'perfect'. sad jiwang song for a sad jiwang mood.

starting to get pissed with my media player which seems to know my mood, i open the playlist to have a look myself. ahhh.. found it. just the song i've been looking for. amanda marshall - i'll be okay. perfect.

i sit down and relax for this one song, start to feel contented and less mood-y. that is, UNTIL i have to worry about what the next song should be again.

hrm.

i think i've had enough rambling for the time being. stacie o just came on with 'i promise'.

hah! like that ever works.

fcuk. i've become a cynic.

@ 11:46 AM