at times i wonder..

there are people out there with worse hurts and cuts than me; people who've gone thru more. people who've been really, truly happy.. and who've seen it all gone right before their eyes. people who've shared something much deeper.. losing it all in just a glance.

and yet.. at times i just feel like i've lost so much. as though a part of me just went missing one day; never to return. to be feeling so deeply hurt, so lost. but what i've felt was nothing compared to what a lot of other people went thru. and that's why i wonder.

i wonder how i can feel so bad and down; when all i've gone thru is only a pinprick compared to everyone else. when theirs concerns something so deep, so indescribable. when theirs is more than just a simple feeling; whereas i'm not even sure what i had anymore.

i wonder. if my almost nothingness can hurt so badly, how would a deeper hurt feel?

i think i dont want to know.

.: if a small cut can hurt that bad, it'd be insane to look for bigger cuts. :.

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