tears.

i've never been one to cry. i dont know why. it's just this amazing ability i have - not that i'm proud of it. it's not fun not being able to cry when you have something to let go of, something you feel bad about that you just wanna release. it's not fun not being able to cry when there's so many things going on and you have no way out but to constantly feel bad about it. what's worse is the fact that you know you CAN cry: but only when it's on screen or in books.

i can never cry when big things happen in life. never at all. i've always wished i could.

somehow, something almost miraculous happened this morning. i cried. i dont know how, or why, but i just cried. all i know is that one second i'm fine, then the next there's this overwhelmingly powerful rush of emotions and i just cried. i cried about it - something i've always wanted to be able to cry about and let go of. it felt good.

altho it was only for a short while, but i felt slightly better after that. i guess i was just having another of my emo moments again. except that this time i at least could do something about it.

i wish i could cry more. i dont understand how ppl can complain about being saps who cry over every single little thing. i think it's perfectly fine. i think it's almost a blessing in a way that you get to be able to have some form of letting go.

the world would be a better place with more tears - but only with the condition that after the crying's done, everyone'll feel much better.

=)

@ 2:56 PM