it's funny how things turn out..

how..

- a year ago i barely knew chiam, and now i dunno what i'd do without her. a year ago i only knew her as stjoe miri's band president, and that she's rosanne's best friend. and some other stuff which you'd only find out thru having addmaths tuition in form 4 together, but that's about it. never would i have thought we'd end up seeing each other day in day out right now. it's funny.

- a few years ago i only knew roy as one of the under16/under18 guys from the kch tennis team. that he was the same batch as adrian ho (i think) they all. never said nil to him before, yet now he's a great friend. or in other terms, chiamie's and my 'sister'. teehee. never would i have thought all those years back that right now i'd be sitting in front of him annoying him. it's funny.

- a year ago i seriously thought i would fail my spm. this is no joke. i know a lot of people probably wouldnt believe me on this one (though i know not for what crazy reason), but yeah. i did. considering my grades during semester exams and all other little exams throughout form 4 and form 5, mygawshhhh. can cry one ah. if i werent so nonchalant about it and was actually more concerned for my grades, i think i would've been crying all year long. addmaths, never pass. bio, chem, physics, fail/pass always on the borderline. moral, rarely pass either. other subs, average. i only have God to thank for not giving me a chance to see a C or below on my spm results. i think i'd say i was blessed rather than 'lucky' - like Fr. Simon says. teehee. because never would i have thought i'd actually get what i got. it's funny, but thank You so much Lord.

- a year ago i believed i was the odd one out. why? i believed all my peers to be ahead of me - in a sense that they knew what their plans are for their future. doctors, lawyers, engineers all.. this is what you get when stuck in a class full of smartasses (i meant that as a compliment =) ). i thought i didnt have a dream. i felt so 'out'. everyone were going on and on about their plans, when i only 'thought' i wanted to do masscomm - a blur vision ahead. never did i realize that this is what i've wanted to do all along. but now i know. for sure. i look back on the past, and everything i did had me prepared for this. a while ago i was looking thru my old stuff. on 'ambitions' many years ago in form 1, i wrote 'journalist'. and i forgot all about it. maybe coz it's just something in me, deep inside that i didnt realize before. i dont know. i know it sounds stupid, but i'd like to believe so. coz that's what keeps us going, isnt it? to believe in sth, to have faith. it's funny, but it's true.

- a year ago i was lost. there were a lot of things i didnt know, a lot of things i was unsure of. i've always had faith, of that i know. i never doubted Him at all. never ever, though at times things got too hard.. but i've always believed. however, i still felt lost. now, i'm stronger. i'm still learning, but that's all i need. never would i have thought i'd get up and find my way, i was really quite lost there. but now i know. it's funny.

- a year ago i never expected to meet such great friends here. i was a bit doubtful, especially coming here to luct on my own, while everyone else i knew went to taylor's or sunway or form 6 or matriks.. sure, i was hopeful, but never did i realize i'd get so lucky. blessed. am very thankful for everyone here, especially chiamie.. ehehe. debs and jess too altho they're no longer here.. but yeah. those are the fun times.. never would i have thought i'd actually have fun here. it's funny.

*sigh.

it's always funny how things turn out. things you'd never have expected before, yet now.. heh. puts a smile on your face thinking about it. =)

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