sweet depression.

i have to keep reminding myself that the mojo incident was not a dream. god. it was so sweet and surreal that i keep believing otherwise. somebody please shoot me. i'm obviously caught (once again) in the tight holds of another crush. god i feel like a little high school girl. listening to sappy music isnt really helping. *eep. this has got to stop. but still.. *resumes dreamy smile. a girl can dream, cant she? ;)

on another note, before i drift off into lala-land, the sumolah! shoot was apparently cancelled today. we were pretty disappointed, but hey, i guess these things can get quite unpredictable. however, there's just this feeling that, damn, we're probably gonna miss the last day and god knows when that'll be. plus, i still havent gotten my picture with afdlin and gavin! somehow it's just depressing to think of it. -_- dont think dont think.

well now here's something happier to think about though. i met up with darwis today! darwis as in monkey darwis from the days we used to hang with the 16th floor guys back in sem one when all of us were still here - me, chiamie, debs and jess. he still looks as good; and seeing him in uni just reminded me of how much fun it was back then with the prima bunch.. especially the crazy videos we used to make, the at-least-three-times-a-night visit to haikal's mamak, chuzzle on edy's comp aka the public computer, studying and finishing assignments with the rest of the nocturnals on the 16th floor.. ah, sweet sweet nostalgy!

the monkey was back in kl for a few days for his wushu competition, and if i didnt happen to be sitting at makanlah where i was this morning, i would've missed him completely! we caught up, and after he went off, i was left with this odd combination of happy-sad: happy coz i got to see him again yet sad coz he's left. after they graduated last year, i never thought for once that i'd ever see any of the 16th floor bunch ever again - especially not in the very near future. but it was great though. i miss everyone so very much; it's good that i got to feel at least a bit (even only a tiny fraction) of how it used to be again. it was sweet of him to mention too that he was just watching our videos the other day before he came over to kl.. *sniff.

okay now it seems that everything has a depressing touch to it. have to cheer up! was just watching schindler's list, and it isnt helping either. i'm in dire need of another cheesy, sappy romance. the kind where you (fine, me then) would feel all sad and teary, but in the end you know it'll be a happy ending. i havent seen one in ages! wanna watch but i'm broke lah. been going out more than i should lately.. even the pay as an extra in sumolah! isnt helping too much. argh.

being a student sucks - at least in terms of money. dont wanna burden the parents too much, but how'd i find a job in kl that doesnt involve spending at least more than half of my pay on transportation and everything else? staying in puchong (aka the middle of nowhere) sucks too.

to add to the depression, the kebin's leaving soon. wish i was back home today having my mom's sarawak laksa (the BEST IN THE STATE! heehee.) with them this afternoon and playing at least a final tennis match before he leaves..

aduh.

i think i'd better take off now before this post gets any more depressing. i wanna wake up tomorrow to a bright saturday morning with sun streaming in thru my windows and nothing to worry or get depressed about except for thinking of what i'm gonna have to cook for lunch and dinner! yups.

ciao for now then.

edit: i just watched the sem one videos againnn~! memories can never be forgotten.. am currently missing everyone.


the monkey who came back for a day! heehee.

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