i used to..
i used to think that life was all about having fun and not having a care for anything else in the world.
i used to look at the world through rose-coloured glasses.
i used to think that exams were a piece of cake.
i used to laugh at people who got so freaked out every time exams were near.
i used to be the first one to argue with teachers over exam marks.
i used to think that family and friends were all that you'd ever need to get through in life.
i used to think there were no boundaries in friendship.
i used to think everyone were like me; they had the same ideas and point of views as me.
i used to think there were no lies in this world.
i used to believe that promises were made to last forever.
i used to have more faith in most of what i believed in.
i used to think that if love was there in the first place, it will always be there.
i used to think that if i waited long enough, my dreams might just come true.
i used to trust in people easily.
i used to dream of many things impossible; yet they seemed possible then.
i used to hope against all hope that things are not as they seem.
i used to..
they say that time changes people; i guess it really does. they also say that time makes you wiser. does it?
so many things i used to believe in.. so many things i think differently of now.
"if it dont kill you, it makes you strong" - author unknown, you got served
SIXTY SEVEN.
it is officially..
SIXTY-SEVEN DAYS TO GO BEFORE FREEDOM!
mwahaha.. 3.30pm sharp on 2nd december 2004. i smell freedom. so close, yet so far..
ooh the stress of spm's gettin to my head. i keep thinking as though it's over even though it's so not.. haiz..
i guess it's coz trials just ended and everything.. ahaha.. had a right damn lazy weekend.. *sighz* gonna start becoming a pig if i keep on sleeping like that. hrm. not that i'm not one already laaaa.. ahaha.. it's just that it feels so good to just relax and not bother about all the shyt that's ahead.
ohwellz. like i said, sixty seven days to go.
sixty seven days of hell.
sixty seven days of revision books and exercises.
sixty seven days of worry.
sixty seven days of not being able to enjoy anything properly.
waaAAAHH~..
i WILL be strong. lolz. hell yeah.
ohhh yeah~.. had seniors' nite last night. to tell the truth, i'm kinda impressed with all that the juniors did. oops. *aherm* correction. all that the prefects did. ahakz.. cant believe they're all grown up now.. it seems as though it was just yesterday when they all got selected as prefects on probation. then it was trial period when they had to do all kinda of shyt (though frankly speaking, it still wasnt as bad as what we had to go thru.. heh..) then it was prefect camp. then they got installed as new prefects. then finally, seniors' nite. the end of all prefectorial business for us seniors.
*sighz* one year passed in a blur. seeing the same thing happen to all these new prefects like what we had to endure last year, god i'm gonna miss all those times. hell as it may be with all the running around doing errands for ppl, all the fun that we had definitely made up for everything.
staying back for backdrop..
hanging out during setting on top of the dewan..
knowing there are ppl you can count on anytime behind you all the way..
lazy afternoons in the bilik mesyuarat on official business..
getting to skip classes (which seems more fun in form 4 tho.. hrm. ahakz..)
seeing the pleased look on teacher's faces when backdrop's a success.. SWEET..
ahaha.. but the thing i'm gonna miss most is definitely the hanging with everyone during backdrop. yeah.. those were the best. ahaha.. these memories all suddenly coming down on me.. the good and the bad. the sweet and the hell. the joy and the pain. aggGGHHH~! i'm missing it all already!
hrm. nostalgia creeping up on me. i guess it's just another one of those days when you've just got so much time to think abt stuff and yeah.. you go on thinking and thinking abt the if onlys.. the why didnt i's.. the how comes..
or maybe i've just had too much sleep this weekend?
ahaha.. aghh either way, i've gotta chao for now. sch's tomorrow and i'm starting to feel sleepy already. i think too much sleep can also make ppl damn sleepy.. OR.. i've symptoms of a sleeping pig!! damn. ahakz. never mindlah.. not everyday got chance sleep so much. ehehe..
*peace out*
happy bday to you~!
happy bday to charz~!!
the best bud anyone could ever have..
well just wanna say a real happy bday to char! hope you're having a great one in s'pore right now.. when you get back we HAVE to go out kayz? i dont care if you sleep till four PM again this time, *wink* we still have to go out anywayz.. ahaha. so much to catch up on.
call me when you get back yeh? ehehe..
luv,
-jo-
day three : spm trials
one word.
HELL.
my gawd.. trials have been going so bad.. bio first day was pretty much okay.. chemistry second day was bad enough.. now.. THIRD DAY.. HISTORY AND ADDMATHS WERE HORRIBLE!!
currently at pustaka.. supposed to be studying physics but here i am.. updating my blog.. ahaha..
well cant say much right now. been checking friendster and deleting my mails; now my hour's almost up. more next time.. ciaoz~!
