air supply.
i just realized that air supply's songs are pretty not bad. been listening to them nonstop since i found out that i actually downloaded their songs in a song-download craze i had recently.. pretty worth listening to. =)
studying chem now with windows media player in front of me. and since i'm typing this, i guess blogger.com's on too. ahaha..
four more days!!
mwahaha.. in just four more days.. i dont need to say what's going on lar hoh? lolz.
bliss.
freedom.
feeling lightheaded just thinking about it.
*wink*
i will be in
penang in exactly a week from now! havent been out for so long since
mssm tennis in
perlis.. wahhh that was in
march arr! ehehe yeay.. ohwellz. who cares about that now.. i'm going out this weekend! first time in
air asia.. sakai man.. heard the seats are pretty uncomfortable in their planes.. hrm. will find out soon enough. =)
gosh i love saying that word. erh, i meant
typing that word.
SOON. kinda gives the impression that spm's gonna be over
SOON. ahaha..
soon soon soon! yesh! i'm going insane here..
havent updated in soooo long! aiyooo.. terrible la like that.. what to do.. my comp laa.. got some stoooopid problem.. (ahaha yeah sure blame it all on
everything but myself. heh..) but really la.. i seriously have no idea what's wrong with my comp. okay get this: i turn on the comp, i see
NO ICONS and
NO whatever-you-call it BAR at the bottom. yknow the one with the
START button? yeah that one the one at the bottom of the screen. i see
NOTHING in my comp whenever i turn it on! well.. except for my wallpaper which shows the whole compound of smkstco.. ahaha.. the only way i can come on is if i use
ctrl+alt+del and turn on internet explorer.. only
THEN i can come on.. apuuu.. sad case lah.. i used to be able to fix it everytime it happened before with
system restore.. now it seems that nothing works.. arghhh.. *sobs* anyone out there know what's going on? i want my baby comp baccckkkk..
haihz. dun wanna think about that now.. too depressing. better say some more before this gila comp disconnects in one of it's
crazy moods again. is there such a thing as computer pms? hrmph.. =(
ohh yeahhh~.. i got a pda last mondayyyy.. ahaha so happyyy.. it's the
palmOne zire 72 and it's
BLUE! i love it so so so much! and since i dont have an mp3 player.. ahaha.. my baby palmOne's become my
mp3 jukebox.. ehehe.. only sad thing is i havent got a new sd card for it yet so i have to use my current camera's card first. ohh and even tho its camera is only 1.2megapix, but heck, i love it to bits.. i'm a
crazy girl if i can get my hands on anything that can take videos.. my camera cant do that, so i'll just stick with the pda until my dad gets a videocam.. =)
ehehe.. saw
tracy in church this morning..
CARMELITE somemore.. was pretty surprised until i found out she slept over at
cheryl's last night.. ahaha.. ohh and i looooveeee
cheryl's hair! pretty
light brown now after what they did to it.. cant wait to do mine on the last day of spm.. got the colour liao this morning.. not that light but yeah it's a nice shade of brown.. almost dark blonde. hope the colour turns out fine on my hair.. ehehe..
aihh.. cant say anything more at the moment.. still have loads more studying to do.. *big grin* till next time, bye peepz~! good luck to all spm ppl out there.. let's rawk
kimia and
bio! only
TWO left.. only
TWO left.. mwahaha.. bubbye~!
procrastinating again. hrm.. doesnt seem to be the first time hoh?
ooohh i'm so
sleepy.. and shyt i'm so gonna die for physics this coming tuesday! bleh. dont wanna go into that right now. it's too
early in the morning to start complaining and worrying coz there's just no use anyway. haihz..
we-ell.. i was
SUPPOSED to wake up at
SIX THIRTY this morning to
STUDY but guess what? i ended up
snoozing my phone's alarm all the way till 7plus until i finally turned it off and slept till 8. oh i am such a
pig.
ehehe.. now i'm all alone at home with the greatest temptations to come online.. turn on the tv.. ahhH! i will be
strong. i will pass these tests of the mind. in exactly
TWO weeks i will be free. i can do it.
*sighz* how many times have i told that to myself and failed? how many times have i procrastinated in this
ONE WEEK alone? crap.. that's a number that cannot be counted.
ohwellz. in that case. i gotta go. just came online to talk crap.
oh yeahhhHH!! my baby bro's coming home next wednesday!! i cannot wait~.. talked to him last night.. ehehe.. miss him
so muchhhHHH.. haihz. i'm counting the days till wednesday la.. *big grin*
laterz.
love.
it is a beautiful thing..
often taken for granted;
often mistaken for something else..
it brings happiness..
it brings ppl closer together..
it brings sweet memories never to be forgotten;
always to be kept in the heart..
it brings smiles to faces..
it makes dreams worthwhile..
it is the thing you'd wake up for every day;
the very core of your being..
love for family..
love for friends..
love for that special someone..
love for all there is to love in the world..
so many things that love can do..
it can make you laugh..
it can make you cry..
it can make you wish of things never before possible..
it can make you dream of greater dreams..
it can keep you hoping..
it can strengthen your faith..
but alas..
love can hurt..
love can break..
it causes pain that takes a long time to heal..
it causes jealousy..
it causes ppl to hate..
it brings tears..
it brings heartache..
it brings loneliness..
it brings emptiness..
all this love can do..
if not taken care of like it should be..
however, the worst of all is..
love can cause friendship to cease..
friends you used to laugh with..
friends you used to share troubles with..
friends you used to cry with..
gone..
all because of love..
now i no longer understand
what exactly is love?
i've always thought of love as beautiful..
a special bond only two ppl understand between themselves..
it makes you sacrifice anything at all for that person just to see a hint of their smile;
even if it tore your heart in two..
it is hope that is never-ending..
it is trust, it is understanding..
it is faith..
it is patience..
it is a true feeling so great, so pure between two hearts..
it is no holding back..
it is something that cannot be put in mere words..
it is a feeling only you would know;
deep inside your being..
but when misused, misunderstood..
so much hurt that love can bring..
so confusing..
so hurting..
now i no longer understand..
as for what you and i have lost..
a friendship so true..
it hurts to know
there is no forgiveness for me..
i'm sorry..
i really hope you would not do this..
but if it makes you happy..
there is nothing i can say..
i can only thank you anyway
for all that you've been to me..
my friend..
ONLY words? or..
kini telah lama kita berpisah
rintihan asmara kian berubah
tiada lagi mengharap
tiada lagi belaian manjamu
semua telah berakhir
ketenangan hidup menyinariku
keperitan cinta terlerai sudah
tabahkanlah hati luka nan berduriku
mengenali siapakah diriku
yang sebenarnya
tiada lagi tangisan
tiada lagi air mata
me
mbasahi jiwa luka
yang tinggallah hanya memori duka
semuanya diduga
pertemuan kali ini
takkan berkekalan
berakhirlah istana bahagia
biarkan daku hidup keseorangan
tak perlu lagi cinta yang menghiris luka
titisan air mata kini kekeringan
tak perlu menabur kasihmu
ketenangan hidup menyinariku
keperitan cinta terlerai sudah
tabahkanlah hati luka nan berduri
kumengenali siapakah diriku
yang sebenarnya
ohhh..
dan kini tertutup jendela harapan ini
takkan menanti ke pangkuan aku
semua takdir yang telah kutemu
kan ku bina segalanya tanpamu
tiada lagi tangisan
tiada lagi air mata
me
mbasahi jiwa luka
yang tinggallah hanya memori duka
semuanya diduga
pertemuan kali ini
takkan berkekalan
berakhirlah istana bahagia
biarkan daku hidup keseorangan
tak perlu lagi cinta yang menghiris luka
titisan air mata kini kekeringan
tak perlu menabur kasihmu
-
tiada lagi tangisan, misha omar
check this out.
check out this cool equation i just got from an email a friend sent. =)
no study = fail . . . (1)
study = no fail . . . (2)
by combining (1) and (2),
no study + study = no fail + fail
study (no + 1) = fail (no + 1)
divide both sides with (no + 1),
you would get a..
STUDY = FAIL
correct? yes, no? ahaha..
well it's just sth to lighten up spm atmosphere la.. dont take it seriously and kill me if anything bad happens to your spm result *touch wood* not that it'd happen laa.. all you guys out there so smart wan.. ehehe..
cheers y'all~! good luck studying..
peace out.
i only wish..
gaH.. woke up at 6 today. accidentally set the alarm
blardy early. it was only supposed to ring at 6.30.. made me sleep half an hour less nia coz i dunno why, i couldnt sleep after i woke up. was just lying in
bed thinking and
thinking and
thinking.. which is actually not that good.
finally got dragged up by my mom at 7.. heh. went over to the
gym again. today at least better than that day lah. ahaha.. didnt feel as unfit as that day. i guess maybe i slept much much earlier last night. ehehe.. no
gayut-ing for me this week. i will
make sure of that. heh..
hrm. after gym went for breakfast with mommie and daddie.. =) with that
darling bugger brother of mine gone in kch, i feel like an only child at home lah. i can get the tv whenever i want to.. i can get online whenever i want to.. ahaha. damn
fun. only thing is i
miss him laaa.. cant wait for him to come back next week~!
later having lunch with aldrin and rem. they're going back to kl this friday.. gonna miss them. they're so cute laa~.. very fun ppl those two.. my mom's making
mee sua for when they're coming over later. *sighz* so long didnt eat mee sua liao.. ehehe.
haihz. actually it's been pretty boring lately. nothing interesting happening.. wanna study also no mood. wanna holiday also no mood. so
alang² laa everything.. cannot wait for
three weeks from now..
oh yea~! three weeks from now i'll be in
penang! yeayy *cheers* ivan's going for his tennis compt so i guess i'm just gonna be
bag-carrier cum
supporter cum
ball-picker cum
tennis player-watcher. ahaha.. then after that it's off to
perlis for another competition before we finally go down to
johor and
s'pore. hrm. i hope the
koreans come down for those two tournaments again. ehehe.. then it'd be more interesting to watch.. *wicked grin* ooh i dont mind the s'poreans either.. or thais.. or filipinos.. ahaha..
gonna be coming back to miri after our 'tour' on
december 26th.
THEN can finally enjoy with friends for
post-spm partaying.. *sighz*
all this thinking about holidays is making me feel lagi
no mood to study. arghhhh! cannot arrr.. haihz. really gotta go now. aldrin and rem will be over soon.
later~!
promises of a procrastinator.
i will
study today.
oh yes i will.
i will
make sure that by the end of
today i will know
MUCH more physics than i currently do.
and i will also
read up on chemistry.
i will.
selamat hari raya~!
SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI
diucapkan kepada muslimin dan musliman di luar sana.. enjoy after puasa and eat loads of raya kuih! ahaha.. ahhh.. the masak
merah.. the rendang.. the
ketupat.. the nice, damn-hard-to-make beautiful,
colourful cakes.. *drools*
just got back from raya visiting.. well, even tho it was only
ONE house, but still.. ehehe.. there was still the raya mood. aghh i'm missing those cute little cakes already!! going visiting again later tonight. ahaha.. bet my mom's pretty glad coz she doesnt have to cook for two meals today. lolz.. but damnnnnn~.. the food's good. ahhh i think i'm gonna get fat
TER after today.. how like that?! ahaha..
later.. gotta
relax a bit liao..
too.. much.. food..
argh.. ahaha.. too much
yummy food.
not. enough. sleep.
woke up at 7 today. arghhhhh not ENOUGH sleeeeeeep!! i only went into
bed at 3 last night. ehehe.. blame modern technology for the invention of phones.. dont know how i'm ever gonna live without them *wink*
went to gym again after not going for so long.. realized how unfit i've become. i cant keep up as much i used to. hrm.. =( gonna have to get back to tennis after spm. yeeaahh baby~! i cant wait. mwahaha.. i miss playing tennis. i miss going for competitions. i miss burning hot matches that last for 2 hours plus under the hot sun.. yeah.. those are good times. ;)
started studying again this morning. sighz. just a bit more of spm to live thru before finally getting free.
oh yeah.. just wanted to say thanks to all you guys out there. got pretty encouraging comments from you all about the science-to-arts thing. really appreciate all the support. =) luv you all to bits!! thanks~!!
is it?
sometimes the very thing you're looking for is the one thing you cant see.
-
save the best for last, vanessa williams
science.
Protein yang dikeluarkan oleh sistem pertahanan apabila terdedah kepada antigen dikenali sebagai
A toksin
B antibodi
C antibiotik
D auksin
apakah kegunaan maklumat ini sekiranya anda tidak akan menjadi seorang doktor pada kemudian hari?
hrm. the big question.
so many people's been thinking i'm
NUTS for taking mass comm after form 5 even though i'm a science student. i mean,
COME ON LAAA.. why cant i make a choice i like?
here's a common conversation..
some auntie or uncle my parents meet up with in the open air market or sth :
so, *peering to look at me next to my parent* you're in.. ahm.. form 5 right?
me :
*nods* *smile sweetly*
auntie/uncle :
is it? ahh i see.. i heard you're in science stream horr?
me :
yes..
auntie/uncle :
aiyahh like that ahh! *claps me on my back*
SURE another engineer or doctor one la hohh? *looks proudly at me* so what are you taking next year?
me :
erm.. i'm taking mass comm actually.
auntie/uncle :
*surprised look* ah? mass comm ah? what's that?
cho ha mik eh? (hokkien direct translation : do what one?)
me :
i plan to be a journalist. i'm taking foundation in mass comm in limkokwing. i love to travel.
auntie/uncle :
harrr?
ay thaan lui meh? (can earn money meh?)
a ne liau si kan.. (so waste time..) you take science now for what leh? better go in arts..
me :
...
end of convo.
to sound polite, thank you very much for caring whether i'm wasting my time or not.. but it is
MY time to waste however i want.
hrm.
so what if i'm in science now and going for an arts subject? who knows.. i might write about scientific astronomical articles for national geographic. ahaha~! now that's dreaming to the highest point laa.. but well, you get my picture. heh..
i love travelling. i love exploring. i want to see the world. i have high dreams. dreams that i can only achieve if i work hard enough.
i cant picture myself an engineer or a doctor. i cant picture myself in a boring 9 to 5 job working my ass off for a few K's every month doing the same boring routine every single day and NOT ENJOYING WHAT I DO. so what about the money? and as for those science stuffs, i'm just not science material, thank you very much.
so please, at least be HAPPY for me when i say i'll be doing mass comm. give me support. i need it. i need to be assured i'll be doing the righ thing because there are so many people against it.
thank you.
i think..
woke up early today. after days of lazing, not studying.. my mind finally consented to let me open a revision book. arghhh all those facts! killing the brain.. just using up important brain cells needed for much more interesting activities.. like.. erm..
shyt.
ahaha that's so sad. i actually cant think of anything fun to do at the moment. i think it's due to the fact that i've been so completely bored for the past few days that i have actually become a very boring person. not that i'm not already one, but then. ho-hum.
anyways..
*big grin*
have been checking out others' blogs. it's interesting to look at life from different people's point of views. i feel like such a lazy bum after reading theirs. it's like, they're all so smart, hardworking people all prepared for spm and stuff.. and here i am complaining about the loss of brain cells due to studying for spm. i should
stop thinking like that.
yes.
therefore, i promise myself that i will study MORE; at least for these few weeks.. and only AFTER that will i allow myself to enjoy life. ahakz~..
hrm. however.. before that i need to consider the fact that all these 'promises' that i make to myself usually never last more than a day. oh that is so sad.
today?
a little bit more than a little bit.
and i mean it.
- baby girl -
war.
i stepped into the exam hall this afternoon feeling as though i was stepping into war armed with no weapons.
as luck would have it, i ended up
EXACTLY the way a person would end up if they entered war armed with nothing to defend themselves with.
shyt.
sejarah was hell for me. as much as i studied, as much as i memorized.. i felt like i did not know
anything when i looked at the questions. what was wrong with me? hell.
i dont know.
i just know i need a break now.
i miss him already.
at this very moment my brother is stepping into the plane leaving for kuching. 11.55am flight. and he'll be gone for
three whole weeks. i'm starting to miss him already.
it's funny, how i can see him every day.. every single morning to night.. get annoyed by him like hell.. and yet, i know deep inside that i'm really gonna miss him when he's not around.
i dont know. i'm just feeling so.. sadly emotional right now. my best friend's gonna be gone for three weeks! no one i can talk to late at night about things only we know about.. no one i can hit and actually get a harder hit in return. hah.. no one to fight with for the tv and computer..
shyt.
i miss him.
i dont know how i'm gonna survive in kl next year.
take care bugger. =)
- chi chi
i just cannot.
i cannot bring myself to do it. i just cant.
love?
love is always patient and kind
it is never jealous
love is never boastful or conceited
it is never rude or selfish
it does not take offense
it is not resentful
- a walk to remember
choices.
so many choices in life which we have to make. our happiness, our future.. it all depends on choices. paths in life which go different ways.. all different from the other.
we make a choice, we get happy. okay, well that's
good. but then.. we'd still have to consider everything else involved with the choice we made. there will be people who get hurt or dissatisfied with what we choose. then? if that happens, what do we do?
some of us would decide on the other choice. the choice which ends up in everyone being happy. everyone being pleased with what we did. but are
we happy? what's the use of deciding if it's not for our own happiness? yet.. we dont want others to get hurt either.
life is so full of choices. how can we be sure that we make the right one?
we dont want to make a choice, be happy with it, and hurt others in the process.
NEITHER do we want to make a choice, something we dont want, and let others be happy with it.
what's the use?
why do we have so much to decide?
why cant it all just be simple?
why do the things we have to choose be the hardest things?
why?
i dont want to decide.
i dont want to hurt anyone.
i dont want to hurt myself either.
i dont want to be unhappy.
i dont want to live a lie.
most of all..
i dont want to hurt
you.
one down, one more to go.
well, one more of
ADDMATH, that is. shoot.
i think i didnt do to well for my paper one this morning. but oh well, what the heck.. i cant take it back and redo it all over again. all i can do now is pray and hope i'll do better for the next paper.
:)
haihz.
wish me luck pplz~!
acceptance. bliss =)
my acceptance letter into limkokwing university college of creative technology.
life is good. well, minus the current sick feeling and the fact that spm is just less than 48 hours away.. but yeah. life's looking pretty good.
i'm sick.
i'm sick.
oh yes.
sick. can you believe it? just two days before spm and i just
had to get sick. what kind of game is life trying to play on me? but luckily for me it's not as bad today as it was yesterday.. yesterday it was all
sore throat + flu + fever. then it went on to a high fever at night. arghh.. thanks to loads of medicine and loads of rest (i feel very much like a pig now due to excessive sleep), i think i'm feeling much better today.. tho i am still having a bit of a problem concentrating. i cant even do addmaths because the moment i even try to figure anything out, my nose would start running away from me. i think i dont need to go into the details for that one.. heh. but yeah, being sick
ESPECIALLY with spm in less than
TWO days is
NOT a good feeling.
haihz.
